Dreams about marriage can often symbolize commitment, partnership, and the desire for connection. In your dream, marrying Caleb may reflect your feelings about your current relationship and your hopes for its future. His action of carrying you bridal style suggests that he is protective and supportive, which could indicate your feelings of comfort and security with him.

The puddles around your table might represent obstacles or concerns that you feel could interfere with your happiness or progress in the relationship. Your panic attack and the feeling of it being "too soon" could indicate underlying anxieties about the pace of your relationship or unresolved feelings regarding your ex, Alan.

Seeing Alan and the following events suggest that there may still be some emotional ties or unresolved issues with your past relationship. His presence could symbolize temptation or a reminder of past experiences that you might still be processing.

The intimate moment with Alan and his cryptic comment about not wanting to share how he got "jacked" could represent feelings of curiosity or unresolved feelings about why things ended with him or what he has been up to since your separation.

Overall, this dream may suggest a conflict between your current relationship and lingering feelings for your ex. It may be beneficial to reflect on your feelings for both Caleb and Alan, and consider what aspects of your past relationship might still be affecting your current one. Taking time to process these emotions could help you navigate your feelings more clearly in your waking life.